life with this man – harder and much more beautiful than I ever could’ve dreamed

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Words etched out a year ago, but still so, so true today… The blanket spread out over the tall grass and there we sat searching for words to express what we were feeling. And I could’ve sworn that my beating heart was about to come thundering right out of my chest – for somehow we […]

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Today My Baby Turned 5

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Today I woke to your sweet giggles from the other room. And I smiled big at your excitement bursting. But it took just about all my strength to sing that birthday song to you this morning without letting the tears spill out. For somehow a half a decade’s worth of days have gone by, and […]

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He keeps stealing my heart

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So this guy – it’s been 14 years – and he just keeps stealing my heart every day. Our life together has been a joy. I couldn’t have asked for a better husband, friend, or father to my kids. Gabe, you make my heart skip a beat still, and I love walking this life with […]

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The Day She Turned 10

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I don’t know how in this crazy world a decade’s worth of days has gone by. Just yesterday I crawled right into that crib with you as your tears mixed with mine. And I prayed something fierce that you would sleep and that no one would see me curled up in those bars around this […]

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the words every mother needs to hear

The Words Every Mother Needs to Hear

For all of you mamas with precious little (and not-quite-so-little-anymore) ones that have filled your womb, your home, or your heart – your labor of love and prayers and kingdom work matters! “To the best mommy ever.” Words written in bright crayon after the morning of frustration and doors slamming and yelling over muddy footprints […]

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A Decade of Missing My Daddy

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It’s been a decade – forever ago and just yesterday all wrapped into one. And the memories are all faded and jumbled. But I remember my tummy. How the knots squeezed tight on my belly swollen so round that I couldn’t see over or around or through. And two babes toddled at my feet as […]

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12+ Favorite Activities for Easter (it’s all about Christ!)

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So, yeah, the story of Easter is tough. It is painful, soul-ripping, and gloriously beautiful. In the end we find it’s a story of deep sacrifice, extraordinary love, and ultimate victory. But getting to that point can be quite excruciating. At Christmas we fall in love with Jesus – God with us – right there […]

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To My Only Son – on Your 8th Birthday

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Yeah, everywhere we go, you’re the boy with all those sisters – The one with crazy energy and far more passion than I ever thought possible. The little man striving to exhibit incredible strength, courage, and honor amidst all things girly. The son that I never in a million years could’ve realized how very much […]

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Why it’s been so quiet around here

why it's been so quiet around here

For years her words whispered softly from behind closed doors and with little ones underfoot and that giant pile of laundry. She painted with words that she prayed would bleed grace and shout hope through the aching. And she cried out something desperate when she reasoned she was losing her ever-loving mind. And as she […]

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When you think you can’t do this anymore

When you think you can't do this anymore

I scratch out these words with fingers trembling – With this deep ache to get real and raw and vulnerable but just not knowing how. I. Am. Afraid. Weeks into the new year and I’m already shaking, slipping, shattered. Maybe it’s the aching realization that I’m just not cut out for this anymore. Some boy […]

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