Joy and Sorrow

I’m this splattered puddle of emotions today. There’s this sweet surprise of joy found right here squished between scrubbing bathroom floors and shaking whipping cream to concoct this buttery science experiment. And there’s this ache of missing my daddy that – after eleven years – I know will always be here in the way her […]

the words every mother needs to hear

For all of you mamas with precious little (and not-quite-so-little-anymore) ones that have filled your womb, your home, or your heart – your labor of love and prayers and kingdom work matters! “To the best mommy ever.” Words written in bright crayon after the morning of frustration and doors slamming and yelling over muddy footprints […]

A Decade of Missing My Daddy

It’s been a decade – forever ago and just yesterday all wrapped into one. And the memories are all faded and jumbled. But I remember my tummy. How the knots squeezed tight on my belly swollen so round that I couldn’t see over or around or through. And two babes toddled at my feet as […]

Why it’s been so quiet around here

For years her words whispered softly from behind closed doors and with little ones underfoot and that giant pile of laundry. She painted with words that she prayed would bleed grace and shout hope through the aching. And she cried out something desperate when she reasoned she was losing her ever-loving mind. And as she […]

When you think you can’t do this anymore

I scratch out these words with fingers trembling – With this deep ache to get real and raw and vulnerable but just not knowing how. I. Am. Afraid. Weeks into the new year and I’m already shaking, slipping, shattered. Maybe it’s the aching realization that I’m just not cut out for this anymore. Some boy […]

To Moms Everywhere – what you need to hear this Christmas

To you moms everywhere, at Christmas – I see you sweet mama with hair in a messy bun and icing on your cheek as you stand in last year’s Christmas pajamas clattering out bowls as cereal gets dumped to overflowing – feeling this crazy concoction of being amazingly blessed and fiercely terrified right at this […]

When the World is a Mess at Christmas

Ten days before Christmas and it gets to feeling like the whole wide world is crumbling all around you. Squabbles over red cups drown out the songs of a Savior. And the tones of the bell ringers ring muffled by anger rising in the streets. And although it seems quite trivial, I never did print […]

For All of You in Your Ordinary (and an Announcement!)

It’s a blur now – The days of having half a dozen kids in just as many years. Moments of tears and beauty and a whole lot of Band-Aids have wrapped together to make this lovely, heart-stretching thing that I call ordinary. And now somehow we’ve finished another school year and all the day in […]

For All the Mothers Everywhere

For all of you mamas with precious little (and not-quite-so-little-anymore) ones that have filled your womb, your home, or your heart – your labor of love and prayers and kingdom work matters! “To the best mommy ever.” Words written in bright crayon after the morning of frustration and doors slamming and yelling over muddy footprints […]

When Grief Touches Your Life

With gentle tears spilling over… I felt the knots tight. With belly swollen round and abdomen bulging so as I couldn’t see over or around or through. Two babes toddled at my feet as I inhaled and exhaled the pain. Five minutes and I felt the contractions deep once again – searing as I tried […]