I read the words slowly.
They seem impossible.
An actual love that is love… not some glorious mess of feelings that have gone askew.
A love full of sacrifice and goodness.
It’s that love that I want so desperately to shine through me.
That gracious LOVE.
That compassionate LOVE.
That s-l-o-w t-o a-n-g-e-r LOVE.
That gentle, kind, selfless LOVE.
So, with little ones resting, I drag the ironing board and the iron upstairs (because amidst the teetering boxes and clutter and stashes of tools and piles of clothes and mismatched socks in the laundry room- there’s just not room to melt crayons… and I’m not sure if I can focus on the richness of His love amidst the accumulation of rubbish).
And once I have a good thick layer of newspaper covering the ironing board, I place a long piece of wax paper down. I sprinkle out the many little shavings of crayon my girls got from broken and well-worn crayons and a sturdy pencil sharpener. And I breathe in and breathe out those twenty-seven words in Psalm 145.
I add another piece of wax paper over the top, and then another thick layer of newspaper before ironing. And I sit right there in a mixture of God’s graciousness, compassion, and loving-kindness.
With the heat of the iron, the wax of the crayon melts and beautifully mixes together.
And I think of how God is using all of my broken pieces-along with the searing heat- to make something beautiful.
To teach me to love.
Not in the striving harder, running myself ragged, trying to force love way.
But by knowing Him more, resting in the richness of His love, and allowing Him to shine through!
And my kids add a shining heart to their collection of props to remind them of the precious verses in Psalm 145. I never would have imagined how a simple crown, a rolled up piece of paper/horn, ribbons of praise, and now a heart- attached with the Word of God- would begin to transform their little hearts… and mine.
“The Lord is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and rich in love.
The Lord is good to all;
he has compassion on all he has made.”
Here is my sweet six year-old, Kayla, saying this week’s Bible verses… :)
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Would others say that you are rich in love?
His love is the only richness that will remain forever.