When You Just Don’t Know What to Do

Because sometimes, sometimes (often times?) we just don’t know what to do.

We’re too overwhelmed to move, too shocked to cry, too tired to speak, too exasperated to try yet one more thing –

Head in hands. Deep breath. Eyes to Him.

Words barely audible –

“I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!”

Words poured out by King Jehoshaphat thousands of years ago.

Words whispered in my heart daily and sometimes, sometimes screamed right out loud.

“I don’t know what to do, Lord! Help!!!”

Looking to you for help

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Up half the night, sleep-starved and grouchy, and wake to complaining, whining and arguing
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

The baby’s crying, the toddler’s screaming and the others try to be heard above the noise…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

A calendar so full there aren’t enough hours in a day or days in a week to fit everything in…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

An Everest of laundry and dishes and sweeping and toilets and mopping and dusting and vacuuming – like brushing your teeth while eating Oreos
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Souls bleeding from harsh words, lying tongues, and selfish hearts…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Husband distant. Friendships wavering. Loneliness prevailing…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Lost jobs and finances aching…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Choices for schooling completely overwhelming…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Disobedience. Sick children. Temper tantrums in front of the whole church reigning…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Bedtime battles and late night phone calls with choked out words of “Are you sitting down?”
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Being hurt. Being wronged…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Failing. Failing. Failing…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

Band-aids and lollipops and Boo-Boo-Buddies too little to heal the hurting…
I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!

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Just don't know what to do

And Jehoshaphat sat TERRIFIED as a mighty army declared war on Judah.

And so they came – a humble king and all his men – bringing their little ones, wives and children. ALL of them came!

They came before the Lord. Powerless. Begging for guidance.

And they cried out, “We do not know what to do, but we are looking to you for help.”
(2 Chronicles 20:12)

They came before God, took their eyes off of themselves and looked onto the only One who could truly help them!

And God heard!

“Do not be afraid! Don’t be discouraged by this mighty army, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.”

No need to fight this vast army, for God was with them!

All they needed to do was:

TAKE THEIR POSITIONS,

STAND STILL

& WATCH THE LORD’S VICTORY!

And the next morning, the army went out taking their positions with singers walking ahead of the army.

And just at the very moment they began to sing and give praise to God, the Lord caused the other armies to fight amongst themselves. When the army of Judah arrived at the look-out point, they looked and saw that every single one of their enemies was slaughtered on the ground.

An incredible display of the Lord’s victory!!!

When you just don't know what to do

just don't know what to do

And here I sit.

Head in hands. Deep breath. Eyes to Him.

Words barely audible –

“I do not know what to do, but I am looking to You for help!”

Before the Lord. Powerless. Begging for guidance.

And He hears.

And He guides me to go out and take my positionopening up that slammed door, grabbing the Kleenex, hugging a child, giving a smile to a husband, picking up a broom while tuning in to praise music

Standing tall and brave knowing He is with me.

Praise rises from my heart and bubbles out my lips.

“Give thanks to the LORD;
His faithful love endures forever!”
-2 Chronicles 2:21b

I need only be still and watch the Lord’s victory.

And wow! His victories are amazing! Maybe through patience to wait a bit longer, strength to give a gentle and gracious answer, guidance and wisdom to do the right thing, or faith to trust Him more with my heart aching!

Don't know what to do

Dear friends, have there been times you just don’t know what to do (even within the last 24 hours)?? I would be honored to call upon the Lord together with you. So that we can confidently take our positions, stand still, praise our God and watch the LORD’s victory!

How to Make the Best Real, Ordinary Love

So, yeah, maybe we haven’t had this crazy romantic love that causes cars and semi-trucks to nearly collide as a mad-dash through traffic is made and a kiss that spins worlds is given at the top of a high rise.

But we’ve had bedhead hair and lazy Monday mornings –

Rumpled sheets and steamy kisses as kids pile in the next room to watch one more rerun of Tom and Jerry.

real love

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how to make real, ordinary love

We’ve had this dance at 3am when she wakes sick and he stumbles out of bed to do the cleaning and rearranging of beds as I do the puke bucket holding and bathing of our little beauty.

And hours later, when all is quiet once again and one, two, three, four… little ones lie on the floor surrounding, he reaches over and holds me close. It’s this whole new form of melting.

We’ve had pecks on cheeks over granola and passionate looks straight across the breakfast table.

And whoever would’ve thought that your heart could beat so fast at him having a tea party with your daughter, at him furrowing brows over Legos, at him putting clothes away on a Thursday!?

And, truly, whoever said that carrying groceries in isn’t sexy?

Yeah, we’ve had dirty socks on the floor and lots of down-right ghastly.

We’ve had silent nights and lashing tongues and days that could slice your heart right open.

And we’ve had moments on knees in repentance and prayer that rival any star-covered evening of proposing.

real, ordinary love

true love

ordinary love

We have had seasons of grief unbearable, and countless times when he’s held me up through the sorrow, the ugly, and the lonely.

And we’ve had this myriad of snort-laughing, crazy beautiful, and awe-filled glory.

But mostly we’ve had these jillions of moments of just plain ordinary –

It’s this love that ties up skates and works like crazy. This love that puts a gentle hand on my shoulder when kids are being frustrating. This love that sneaks moments alone and shovels snow and takes out the garbage without complaining. This love that preaches truth on Sundays and strives to live truth every weekday. This love that brings me my favorite treats, plunges toilets, twirls with our littlest lady, plays hockey with the boy, and helps find the missing Dora undies.

This love that never stops, but keeps on battling.

And when lights are out and kids are sleeping, it’s this love that whispers about hopes and dreams and worries – until we notice that it’s only 9:30 and we’re both already dozing.

It’s not anything choreographed or flashy.

There are no kisses on skyscrapers.

But there’s love in the monotonous moments. One moment, one day, one load of laundry, one tuck into bed, one act of forgiveness at a time – through the wretched, wrinkled, and lovely.

It’s this gospel story lived out right in front of me.

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